I was patting C to sleep tonight when he asked me if I was sending him to early intervention school tomorrow. I replied yes and he continued the conversation and said,
Mummy will bring C to Nursery?
“Yes C, mummy will fetch you from early intervention and drop you at nursery”.
C is alone at nursery.
I was a bit shocked to hear that.
C, I thought you have YJ? He plays with you right? ( YJ is the only friend I know who plays with him in school.)
C, is YJ still in nursery?
C, do you still play with YJ?
YJ goes one then come nursery.
I couldn’t get what C meant. My heart broke.
C, are you okay alone at nursery?
C, I’m sorry. I’m sure you’ll find friends.
(I went forward to kiss and hug him, and when I hugged him, he said,)
Mummy, don’t talk. Go to sleep.
I don’t know why a drop of tear fell from the corner of my eyes. I want C to have friends, not many, at least just one. I can’t imagine my baby alone in school. As he grows up, how will it be? I really don’t know. I didn’t know what to do or say. C is sound asleep as I’m typing this. Did he really not mind being alone? How will this world treat him as he grows up?
My dear C, I’ll do my best. Even though you might be alone with no friends in school now, and perhaps in the future, you’ll always have mummy till Kingdom comes. I will stand firm for you, I will always love you, I will always be there for you, for as long as this journey will take me.
We will walk securely together…
Together, we will go far…
Love you always,